Once and for all, I am taking charge of my Anxiety
From my earliest memories, I have always in some way suffered hugely from anxiety to the point where I can’t leave my room for fear of what the outside world would think of me. Still to this day (I’m 35 years old) it controls my judgment, decision making, and has taken an enormous toll on my marriage. My Anxiety is destroying my loved ones and me, and it is exhausting.
Anxiety, for me, honestly has been a roller-coaster ride throughout my lifetime. I have tried all sorts of different ways to combat the sometimes devastating effects and consequences with varied results, not ever been able to stick to one method. The best treatment I found was meditation. It is by far and away the most effective way of coping with it for me, but I’ve never been able to incorporate it into my everyday life.
Being a father of 5 beautiful boys, my wife and I have a lot on our plate
It’s the most rewarding job (for lack of a better word) in the world but with this comes to stress and overwhelm, too. Lately, my anxiety has been at what I would consider an all-time low; I’m second guessing everything, the way I am towards my family fluctuates from one minute to the next without my knowledge. I can explode and completely lose my mindset and not be able to bring myself back and focus for hours. Within that time I would have managed to destroy everything, including my wife’s trust and love for me. Anxiety for me is a constant battle that I quite often don’t want to fight. It is a disorder I know I can manage but choose not to.
Finally, I am OWNING IT!
I am committing to making a change and putting my hand up and owning it. I am going to manage it, once and for all. I am going to save my marriage and be an amazing role model for my fantastic boys. I am going to put everything into making the CHANGES for an amazing future for me and my family.
Many people suffer
I’m writing this in the hope it may help or at the very least let people who suffer from this disorder know that they’re not alone. I know so many people suffer quietly from this, (as I always have), and feel separated from society.
I would love to hear your thoughts and experiences if you have any, and of course, if you’re up for it.
Feel free to pop a message below, or you can reach out to me so we can connect.
Thanks for listening,
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