My Anxiety is Destroying me and my family

My Anxiety is Destroying me and my family
Once and for all, I am taking charge of my Anxiety

From my earliest memories, I have always in some way suffered hugely from anxiety to the point where I can’t leave my room for fear of what the outside world would think of me. Still to this day (I’m 35 years old) it controls my judgment, decision making, and has taken an enormous toll on my marriage. My Anxiety is destroying my loved ones and me, and it is exhausting.

Anxiety, for me, honestly has been a roller-coaster ride throughout my lifetime. I have tried all sorts of different ways to combat the sometimes devastating effects and consequences with varied results, not ever been able to stick to one method. The best treatment I found was meditation. It is by far and away the most effective way of coping with it for me, but I’ve never been able to incorporate it into my everyday life.

Being a father of 5 beautiful boys, my wife and I have a lot on our plate

It’s the most rewarding job (for lack of a better word) in the world but with this comes to stress and overwhelm, too. Lately, my anxiety has been at what I would consider an all-time low; I’m second guessing everything, the way I am towards my family fluctuates from one minute to the next without my knowledge. I can explode and completely lose my mindset and not be able to bring myself back and focus for hours. Within that time I would have managed to destroy everything, including my wife’s trust and love for me. Anxiety for me is a constant battle that I quite often don’t want to fight. It is a disorder I know I can manage but choose not to.

Finally, I am OWNING IT!

I am committing to making a change and putting my hand up and owning it. I am going to manage it, once and for all. I am going to save my marriage and be an amazing role model for my fantastic boys. I am going to put everything into making the CHANGES for an amazing future for me and my family.

Many people suffer

I’m writing this in the hope it may help or at the very least let people who suffer from this disorder know that they’re not alone. I know so many people suffer quietly from this, (as I always have), and feel separated from society.

I would love to hear your thoughts and experiences if you have any, and of course, if you’re up for it.

Feel free to pop a message below, or you can reach out to me so we can connect.

Thanks for listening,

James

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5 Comments
  1. To my darling, beautiful James,

    There’s not a minute that goes by that I stop loving you. You are my everything, you are our everything and I am so proud of you for reaching out. This is the start of something amazing for you my darling. Only you can do this, we can support you and will in everything you do, but it is YOU that is the only one that can make the CHANGES.

    We truly couldn’t be any more proud of what you are doing. By opening up and sharing your life; insight into your Anxiety, you will inspire others to do the same.

    You really are our world James and we couldn’t be any prouder of the man that you are. The CHANGES you are making. The commitment to your family.

    I love you with all of my heart…and know, I will always be by your side…always.

    Much love, always.

    Your wife and partner in crime,

    Rania

  2. Hi James,

    What a genuinely open-hearted post. I hear you. Acute anxiety and I are well acquainted. However, I have overcome it after decades of suffering this incapacitating condition. I would like to offer you one on one sessions, as I believe I can help you to overcome it too.

    Please feel free to get in touch if you would like to make a start. Perhaps you could then share the outcome on here in your journal, in the effort to enlighten others.

    Best regards,

    Mrs T

  3. Just to the let the readers know I’ve taken Mrs t up on her offer. I’m soon to update my journal so watch this space!

  4. Hi James,

    Anxiety has shadowed most of my life too. And like you, I’ve had ENOUGH. No more of this anxiety! I’m 3 sessions into seeing a local counsellor / reiki therapist. Its not cheap, but its got to be done. I’m going to see this one through 🙂

    I wish you all the best, and look forward to your updates.

    Vanessa

  5. Hi Vanessa,

    Thanks for the message! That’s great to hear about the help you are getting, I would love to hear how it all goes.

    For me, I have been working with Mrs T, using the Havening Technique. It has absolutely changed my life and my families. I had a few sessions with her and now do it by myself, which is great as it only takes 10 minutes!!!

    I have tried so many things, my entire life and this is the only one thing that works. This really is a true story….and, we can’t actually believe that it’s working.

    I am about to write another blog post with my updates so keep an eye out for it.

    Thanks again, Vanessa.

    James

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